Be Still

He says, "Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,

I will be exalted in the earth."

Psalm 46:10

    I have crossed paths with this message several times in the past week. It may have been said or written in different words, but the meaning has been the same: stop trying to figure it out on your own. Just be still and let God do His thing. And whatever He has panned, will be way better than anything you can come up with on your own

    Waiting is not my strong suit. I have a hard time sitting "idly by." I want to fix it. I want to know that it is taken care of. My first inclination is to "figure it out." But that is not what God wants. God wants me to just be still, to wait on Him, to trust Him. 

    Proverbs 3:5-6 says, "Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding. In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths." Yet so many times, like tonight, I catch myself trying to figure it out on my own. I know this is one of those lessons God is trying to teach me -- to be still, to trust Him in all things.

    It's hard to let go, to up the reigns. I have been accused of being a control freak. I will not deny it. Some areas are worse than others and one such area is finances/money. When you are down to your last $40 and still have a week to go until pay day, it's HARD to "be still," to not try to figure things out. When you get that 48 hour cutoff notice from the electric company, it's hard to say, "Okay, God, I know You got this." it's HARD to tamp down that gut instinct to come up with a solution, even when I know, I KNOW, God will keep His promise to meet my every need. He has before, over and over again.

    Not even a year ago, we were in this same situation -- maybe even worse. You see, when I was diagnosed and went on disability my income was cut in over half; yet, our expenses went up. So, after months of robbing Peter to pay Paul and juggling the bills, it all came crashing down. We were behind on every bill, including rent. We were days from eviction and all utilities being cut off. I had no other tricks up my sleeve or bright ideas.

    I finally said, "God, I can't do this anymore. I need Your help." I turned to Him and trusted HIm to provide for us. I sat on my hands and prayed. And you know what happened, He didn't let me down. He supplied all our needs and then some.

    That is not the only time since journey began that God has come through for us. I can think of several others. I am sure that this time won't be the last either. And I know that He will not forget me this time, that He is going to work it out, some how, some way. I just have to stop trying to be in the driver's seat, let Him take the wheel and trust Him to direct my path.

    I just have to be still and wait on God. He is never late. He is always on time. "But these things I plan won't happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches n the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow do not despair, for these things will surely come to pass. Just be patient! They will not be overdue a single day!" Habakkuk 2:3.

    Father, thank you for all the times You have made a way for us financially. Thank You, Jehovah Jireh, my provider, for meeting our needs. Lord, I know I can't do this on my own. I need Your help. Help me to be still and wait for You, for Your timing. I trust You, God to make a way to meet our needs. I thank YOu, praise You, for all You are doing on our behalf. I know we would't have it this far with YOu. In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.

~Delta